looking for the clarity

looking out the glass window
i see the blue horizon
i see the myriads of color
the flowers are in bloom

looking from behind the swing
i see the children laughing
for what could possibly be better
than the stopping of the ice cream man

looking out into the distance
i see the mountains blazing
i see the sunflower rising high
to meet the dying sun

looking through the leafless trees
i see a bare, naked world
i see the castles in the sky
that hide behind the clouds

looking deep within myself
i see the swirling colors
i see the confusion of an average teen
that may sometimes lead to trouble

looking for something to save me

i see only an endless abyss

i see no bright light to lead me

only me myself and i

looking out unto the world
i see the hurt and agony
i see how one minute mistake
can be the death of thousands

looking for the answers
to all of life's questions
i find not only none
but many more to wonder

looking for the clarity
i see only the destractions
i see the myriads of color
this time they are not flowers

looking for the clarity
may take me my whole life
even then i may not find it
for i only exist for a moment

looking for the clarity
is something i must do
i take my job quite seriously
and i wish that you would do so too